I finally picked up our DSLR this weekend after a long hiatus of not carrying it around. E has finally reached a point where she does not require an enormous pile of crap to travel, which makes taking a large camera along a little easier. An unintended result of using the DSLR was that I forgot about my phone. Since I wasn’t using it to take photographs, I also spent far less time fiddling with Instagram and other apps.* It was really nice to take a break – and have to wait until I got home to see what the pictures looked like (isn’t it funny that a DSLR now constitutes “waiting” whereas film was the long process just a few years ago?). Anyway, camera choice is not the point of this post, but time and waiting is.
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It was hot in NYC this weekend – so much so that many of the parks turned on the sprinkler water, marking Memorial Day weekend as the first few water-filled days of the summer season. E had a ball and so did we, yet by Monday it was clear that she was working on something.
Yesterday afternoon, after a full morning of water and sun with a friend, she opted to stay inside, playing contentedly by herself with a tea set and some seashells. I could tell that one of the reasons she did not want to go outside was that she was working on a skill – she was so serious and quiet. When not playing on her own she sat on the top of the couch looking outside, content, but focused. At one point I looked at her as she sat there, so still, the afternoon sun hitting her crazy corkscrew curls, and saw an intensity in her face that will likely be there throughout her life. While she is certainly a free spirit who does her own thing – and often in totally different ways than anyone else around her – she also has this amazing ability to tackle a goal, break it into smaller tasks, and master them one by one.
While some people might view this as incredibly stubborn at first, it’s really the way that she comes to terms with achieving milestones, and when I step back at the end of the process and think about how she got to the accomplishment, her technique is rather amazing. When I sat there, taking in that realization, I wanted to gather her up in my arms and smother her with my overwhelming love. She obliged for a moment, letting me squeeze her for a second before kissing my cheek and whispering, “Not now Mommy, I’m working on it.”
My little E, you are always working on something, and that is one of the gazillion reasons that we love you so much.
* The irony being that the above image is, indeed, a photo taken with a phone app. Oh well.



